Day 3 waves of anxiety

I cannot stand my day starting by being woke rather than waking but we had the nephew overnight so I can’t complain because he is a little legend.

My other blood nephew had a birthday party today at partyworld or something it’s called. Massive soft play area..loads of screaming kids..relatives wanting smalltalk and gossip about why and how I have been going crazy lately. Luckily my youngest brother turned up in a worse state than me mentally, physically and drunkenly. I am worried about the lad he is probably more mentally fucked than me and a lot younger. Maybe it’s a family thing, the drink fucks all of us Mackey’s up somehow.

Maybe it was the 3 coffees I had today but all of a sudden a massive wave of anxiety pulled me out to sea. Drowning in depression I decided against going for a swim and sauna tonight I just wanted the safety of my home. I will be definitely hitting the gym tomorrow for a decent time. My uncle has convinced me to go to jiu-jitsu with him on Friday so let’s see how that goes.

Saltburn

Monday..usually THE worst day of the week, not today though..not today. The sun is shining and it’s suprisingly warm outside (not spanish warm like I’m used too but still warm) so I am off to Saltburn with the missus,nephew,sister-in-law and mother-in-law!

BOOM..and just like that, dark clouds are overhead threatening to piss down the cold April rain. Fuck it we are going to Saltburn still.

We arrived in Saltburn with a few grey clouds but we wouldn’t let that stop us.

The famous Saltburn cliffs. I have never really took much notice of the simple yet complicated beauty of the cliffs but wow. The beauty is maybe overshadowed by the fact it is a suicide spot which is very tragic but a beautiful place to die.

During a piss pit stop I saw this old school graffiti and had to take a picture. I wonder if people actually meet this way 😂.

The famous Saltburn pier with a couple of dogs playing on the beach. It’s a shame piers are so rare as I always hold fond memories of the pier in great yarmouth and my brother being scared to walk on it.

The sister-in-law recommended this place for fish n chips which seen as it wins awards was a good shout. Got myself a chip buttie with mushy peas and it was top notch, we sat in a little seating area further along and had our food.

Here’s the sister-in-law and the nephew tucking in.

Had to have a go in the arcades whilst we were there to win tickets for the nephew to get a prize.

The missus won £70 from £1 on the fruit machine. So it was a great day despite the clouds on the morning.