Today i had to say goodbye to one of my favourite people on the planet, one of the 10% i actually really really care for and would do anything for. “For fuck sake why is he referring to his cat as a person the weirdo” you may ask..and if you are then you
1) Are one of the 90% i would happily put in his place given the chance.
2) Have never properly had a pet and cared about it like you’re meant to.
3) Are a heartless clueless dreg of a human.
This friend had been in my life for over 7years..rain or shine..if i was being a dickhead or not he was there..he was my boy..my bud..my mate..not just a cat. We had our routine together –
I’d wake up to be welcomed by bailey meowing as to say “hurry up man I’m hungryyyy” so I’d sort him some food out which he would eat so fast that by the time I’d made my cereal it was gone. He would then follow me wherever i went with my cereal and guard me to make sure if anything was left he would get it, i always said “no bailey this is mine” but always saved him the last bit of milk..sometimes he would pull the bowl down with his paw just to make sure i hadn’t finished it. Once i put the bowl on the floor he would purr..I’m gonna fuckin miss that purr..and once he finished i would let him out to go to the toilet. Once I was showered and ready for work id give him a shout and he would come running out of the bush he always laid in meowing once again at me, this time i imagined him saying “jeeeesus take your time why don’t you its freezing out here” and I’d apologise “i know i know sorry bail” quick kiss and stroke and off i go.
When arriving back from work walking into our close I’d make a little tutting/kissing noise which bailey somehow knew was a safe signal it was me, out of the bush he would come and run towards me again meowing although this time it was a “yessss your home, i missed you, how are you, give me food now” so I’d do my usual “hello bails,how are you?yesss you’re hungry i know come on then”. When in the house I’d take my coat off in the downstairs toilet and hang it up..turn around and he is on the toilet seat meowing again “cuddles..cuddles..CUDDLES” so I’d pat my stomach and say “come on then” and he would stand up on his back legs and stretch his front legs out up to my hands and i’d pick him up, he would wrap his front legs round my neck as though he had studied how humans hug..I’d walk to the front room and put him on the settee and off he would go.
By the time i was showered and fed and thinking about unwinding in front of tv on my bed I’d walk in and there was this cat somehow taking up half the bed. Rather than pick up his royal catness I’d end up laying diagonal on the bed until bailey decided that despite him snoozing he didn’t like me being on my phone so he would lay on my chest and nudge my phone out of the way so i could pay him attention (annoying at the time but I’d kill for it now). Then bailey would decide to lay around my head until it was bed time and we would take him downstairs and put him to bed ready to start the routine all over again.
That was OUR thing..and it will never happen again much to my devastation..because out of nowhere this morning a quiet thud was heard and a meowing of “HELP PLEASE HELP DAAAD..MAMMM HELP” rushing in he was already going..seeing his body all floppy and tongue sticking out i knew it was bad..shouting his name to let him know that i was there was all i could do..his eyes just weren’t there anymore..he had checked out..desperate i started panicking “BAILEY COME ON” he wasn’t breathing..desperate as fuck to keep my best friend here i start giving him mouth to mouth not knowing if that even applies to cats..after doing that for a bit that was it he was gone..i was lost..i expected him to snap out of it so i could tell him off for scaring me like that..but he never did..
I cried real pain tears for the first time today..not physical pain but emotional pain..the worst pain..those tears are still going now everytime i think of my little bailey and what must have gone through his mind in his last few seconds. Thank you for the 7years of pure real love bailey, i have missed you every second since you left me. You are my boy and always will be.